Just 1 kid, or have another 1?

I do love kids! During my working days, the children of my officemates would always come up to me to play, even the youngest kid of my boss! I couldn't do my job and would always end up playing with the kids! When my closest cousin had a baby, I fell in love with kids all the more! I would always look forward to go home early to be with the baby! She's so cute and adorable! I would buy her stuff and just spoil her to bits! She calls me Mummy Sheng. I would often bring her to the office every Saturday and head off to the mall. Whenever I see someone I know, I would tell them that she's my kid, and they just wouldn't belive me! People always tell me to get a family of my own since I love babies! How I really wish at that time!

Till I got married and had a kid of my own. You just couldn't imagine the state of happiness that I was in! I was in total awe with the kind of overflowing love that I have for my baby! It's like I couldn't ask for more! I know you mothers out there knows what I'm talking about!

That goes without saying how I spoil Kaiden! But that's another story.

I've always wanted to have 2 kids, a boy and a girl. I actually thought that Kaiden will be a girl! Anyways, I already planned to have one more after 3-4 years. I started taking pre-natal supplements like folic acid, calcium tablets and Elevit since August of last year. We started trying for about 5 months now. Since I started feeling sick and all, last week, I thought that I might finally be pregnant! Even Hubby said that I just might be. But as of today, apparently, I'm not pregnant at all!

When I get my period, I usually get depressed. Because I really wanted to have another baby! Lately I've been bugging Hubby if he really wants to have one more. He said if I get pregnant, of course he'll love it. But he said at this day and age, life is getting harder. That maybe it would be wise if we just adopt. Adopt??? He said it will help another homeless kid out from the street. I can see his philanthropic logic there, but . . . I asked him if he'd rather have a stranger than our own flesh and blood? Then we got into a discussion/debate. I said that I just feel sorry for Kaiden because he'll be growing up alone when we finally go back to Australia. He said Kaiden will have his friends. But I think it's different if it's your own, right? Like I grew up having siblings and it's fun! I want Kaiden to have that kind of bond with his future brother/sister.

That also made me think of the pros and cons of having another kid. There's a lot of pros but there's a bit heavier cons.

Oh, I don't know! Should I have one more or Kaiden is enough?

Gorgeously . . .
Mrs. G